And I got hardly any sleep last night and today I just felt generally shitty. My dad has had cancer for three years, and because he’s the strong silent type, he never talked about it, so I stupidly believed it was getting better.
And now—even though he has never told me—I think it’s terminal. I go to radiation with him every day, and I typically love getting to spend a few minutes with him before he goes in. It makes me feel close to him, and proximity is one of the only ways I feel like I can show him that I love him.
He’s been in such a great mood lately, but I’m sure he’s acting strong so he doesn’t worry me. And some days, when I leave the radiation clinic and go back to work, I just want to cry all day. And sometimes I just sit in my car and try to understand mortality, but I can’t because it’s just so fucking unfair.
I have been putting this cancer at an arm’s length for three years, as if not acknowledging it will make it go away, but here it is, growing and growing and shutting down organs.
I love seeing my dad, but sitting in the radiation clinic and talking to doctors and avoiding the word “terminal” and pretending everything is okay is exhausting. Mortality is staring me in the face, and there’s nowhere to hide now.
And tomorrow is Dad’s birthday and I’m so happy for him but I’m also super aware that it’s probably one of his last, and I really don’t want to think about that.
My sister is better at expressing feelings than I am these days, so I’m just gonna co-sign this.
When people reference your race when describing your career, is that a point of pride or is that something you think is overplayed in the media as part of your story, or is it a combination?
Don Cheadle: I don’t know, I don’t often… I guess I get asked that question sporadically. It’s not often what is led with, you know, and I don’t know if that’s just trepidation to dip their toe in the pool about that subject matter, or if it’s just because it’s less relevant than the work that I’m doing. But I mean it obviously comes up. [x]
DreamWorks Animation Studios has announced the addition of a black female heroine (gasp!) to its repertoire of white dogs, green ogres, snails, Neanderthals, pandas, white people and Antz. In doing so, it joins an elite club consisting of … well, nobody.
Not one major Hollywood studio has released a 3D animated feature starring a black character.
SHES VOICED BY RIHANNA
GUYS THIS IS BASED ON ‘THE TRUE MEANING OF SMEKDAY’ BY ADAM REX AND I AM READING IT RIGHT NOW AND IT IS ACTUALLY REALLY AMAZING AND MY ONLY COMPLAINT IS SHE DOESN’T HAVE HER SWEET-ASS AFRO PUFFS SHE HAS IN THE ILLUSTRATIONS.
The character is Gratuity Tucci and when her planet is taken over by aliens (who also take her mom) who declare it theirs because they discovered it, she sets off on a road trip (she taught herself to drive, ‘crazygood, as good as nascar’ she says) to the human relocation area of Florida where she meets up with a Boov (one of the aliens) named J-Lo who decides to stick with her. She isn’t pleased.
I’m not done yet but oh my god, it’s really great. She also has a cat named Pig. Who joins her on the road trip. As one does.OH MY GOD THEY’RE DOING SMEKDAY THIS COULD BE SO AWESOME OH MY GOD PLEASE DON’T EFF IT UP DREAMWORKS!!!